Sleeeeeppppppppp

It's been a long time since i last updated my blog.
It seems to be dead for a long time,
well, i'm like a dead meat though,
for this moment, i am...
gosh... don't know how to explain my mood now,
but what i know is that i get angry and mood swing easily these days...
dunno why, for a small reason, i could feel like whacking someone...
i feel i'm so much scary....what happen to me?? dunno.....
hates the feeling being so hot tempered... i wan to relax my mind yet i can't....
i just want a simple night that i could rest my mind but it seems to be very hard... i can't sleep at this hour, and i'm still fuq-ing online right now.... geez.... I wish i were not educated, then i won't understand language and words where it would not make me understand the truth.... i dowan lose you, and i wont let it happen... i will keep u deep inside my heart and no one ever occupy it.... maybe u dun understand, but i dun understand myself well.... I just feel that i have changed where i do not recognize who am i actually...i seem to lost myself already, i hate ppl easily...i hate this, i hate that....almost hates everything.... Just wanted to keep my ears stuck with earphones and listens to songs....where it relaxes me and my mind....most important is i dowan to get irritated with the noises... why am i so autistic?? i dunno too.... late in the night, can't slp... early in the morning, can't wake up.... There was a gamble between me and my friends... see will lose first.... but seems like i WON already.....